Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Life has been fine here. My other half's Aunt and her husband have moved to Penticton. They came for dinner the other night and it was a pleasant time. It is nice to have some of his family around. Without any hostel happenings. They were a pleasure to have. I can't wait to go and see her and do some shopping...yes she likes to shop! Anyway, other than that life is "normal" we work come home eat and sleep. Wait...is that normal? No fun...hmmm I am not sure hahaha oh well fun will come. Oh yeah we did get our hot tub fixed, so that is always nice too. Especially after karate. Stasia and I both are training this year. We go two times a week. Stasia is doing good. She has started piano lessens and she loves it. School is always good with her....my smart little cookie. Jeesh I am lucky.
Oh I did have a scare though. My heart is not feeling so well these days. Why? I have no idea. The other day I ended up going to the hospital to get some advice. I was in so much pain the night before and it was still hurting, not as much mind you, but still hurting. So I went on the urging of my spouse to get it checked out. The doctor said it could just be a sports injury from karate. So I could not train for the next class. Which I never did, but I went to the one after that. Well, I am not sure if that is it. I still have the pain on and off, but not as hurt full. So I will be going to my doctor on the 9Th to have some tests done. I am also going to get my cholesterol checked. I know....I am not that old, but better safe than sorry. I do have to admit that I did eat a lot of fast food while I was a teen and I am sure that did not help. So I am having it checked. I hope it is just gas...that is what I keep saying. So until next time if there is one.
Sunday, September 9, 2007
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Now don't get me wrong...I love my life! I am fortunate for a lot of things. My health, my partners health and my daughters health. We also have plenty of things to be happy for as a family, a house, a running vehicle, bills paid and food in the cupboards etc.... but don't we all want something we don't have. I think that we do. I think by blogging this out it helps me in my own head to think. I know what lies ahead in my future is already written, but I like to believe that if I decide something it is of my own doing. I don't know if that makes sense, but oh well it does to me. Thanks for the time.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
The trip to Nanaimo is over. It was a wonderful time. This is a pic of me and Krista together at last. It has been years since we have been together and I can say that I have missed her more than words can say. I have never had a sister, but she is definitely as close to one as I will ever get. We are alike in so many ways, and to be with her was like remembering parts of myself that were lost.
I finally got to meet the boys and Hillary. Oh my sweet Hillary...I wish I could hold you in my arms every day.
Kale is so funny. He is the most articulate boy and so polite. I just could not stop smiling and laughing at him. He is such a breath of fresh air. Just a wonderful person to be around.
Sammy...hmmm what can I say about him. Once you look into his eyes and he smiles at you, that is it your done. I was wrapped around his finger from first look. He is so wonderful.
Aden.....I still miss you! I never got to spend any time getting to know you again. Maybe next time.
We spent time at Rathtrever and it was an absolutely gorgeous day. Krista and I took lots of photos. I think between the both of us we must have taken 300 in total. It was worth it. Time flew. Everyday was like a blur...I am sad that I never had more time. I miss the island, the smell of the ocean, the ocean itself, the memories, etc...which brings me to the mixed emotion part. I would love to start packing right now and move, but we have so many commitments here. Shane has the business, well we both do really. Stasia has her friends. We have our house and really this is were we have mad a life together. On the other hand, we could just sell it all and be off. Start a new journey start a new business. I would have what I have missed for years and get to watch not only my daughter grow, but Krista's kids too. I would love to be a bigger part of their life. To be able to just pop over when I wanted. Again....sadness and happiness mixed all together.
Home is hot. It rained the whole time on the island, that is something I don't miss. It is 119 degrees right now at home. That is a big difference from rain.
We went to Playland on our way home. Five and a half hours of spinning and jerking around on rides. Fabulous absolutely wonder full. Stasias cousin Courtney joined us. I am glad. I have missed her too. There was a period of years that I missed out on her life as well, but now I am so happy that she is back in our lives. Anyway it went well, until both Courtney and myself felt like we had to puke. I could not take anymore rides. We were suppose to stay at my brothers house that night, but I really wanted to come home. I missed my hunny (shhh don't tell) and I really wanted to sleep in my own bed. It was comfy. I went right to sleep, oh after I said hi to my dogie for an hour, then I went to sleep and never woke until my hunny got me up to have a coffee with him at 7:30 this morning. It is good to be home. Oh and the house was actually clean!!!haha. So it is now around 1:00 and I have just finished showering and having coffee. I think I am going to go check the mail and relax until tomorrow. Time to go to work.
Bye for now!
Friday, July 27, 2007
Well I learned that I am now to old and not to cool anymore. She went to the movies with me and hung out with me for a total of 2 mins. Yes just enough time for me to pay and hand her cash for the concession. She caught up with her friends there and I proceeded to my seat. She brought me a med popcorn and a small pop and left with my change and me sitting in my seat alone! Gosh when did I get old? And why did I have to? I tell you what sitting there by myself waiting for the movie to start was kinda saddening. I have had her to myself all these years and now empty handed I am. Oh well, I suppose that is the way the cookie crumbles.
Oh...the movie. We (in separate seats) seen The Fantastic 4 Rise of the Silver Surfer. My rating on a scale of one to ten is a seven. The first one was better. Anyway, bye for now.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Stasia and I have been training this July. It has been mostly for kumite. I tell ya what...I suck right now! Who would think something like fighting would be that hard, well it seems to be. I learned I have no coordination. Yep two left feet or is it right feet? All the same right now. I am going to have to really apply myself before next fall so maybe I will catch on to some techniques and not get my ass kicked. Anyway, I think I still have a case of writers block. So until next time...take care.
Sunday, July 1, 2007
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Actually it has thrown me for a loop. I am so emotional thinking back at my own time of having a baby and can not believe that I will never have another. Holding a precious gift of life.
My daughter has been and always will be the most wonderful gift I have ever received, but it hurts my heart to think it stops with her. There are so many things to think about though and for the majority I have talked myself out of thinking that I would be able to accommodate mother hood to anymore children. My biggest fear was breaking the bond with my daughter. You see, Stasia and I have travelled a long road together. She has always been my drive for life. Now though she is twelve and I know that is not all grown up and she still needs me and all that, but she just doesn't need me enough...you know? Which is good and I love the stages of watching her grow and soon she will be a teen and I can't wait to see her become a young teen girl, flirting and giggling and laughing and fussing all the good things. I just miss the baby times. She was a perfect baby. Never cried never grumpy she was a happy little bundle of joy.
Even if it was possible to have a child I would be older and right now I have started on a journey for myself. It's true you know..as you become and older woman (well, closer to the forties years) You really do become more complete and satisfied in your own self. I really love the time I am spending at karate, and kayaking( if I ever get out again) and times I get to just do nothing. But would I give it up again to hold and adore another gift of life? I don't know. What I do know is looking at Krista's baby and seeing pictures of her boys makes me think, yes I might. Time, luck, and patients, all contributing factors. Well, I suppose though maybe it will pass and I will just get over it, but it seems to always be burning in the back of my brain. What if? Is this really the end? Do I wait now until my daughter is grown and decides that she is ready to have children. What if she never does and I have become accustomed to the fact that I was going to be a grandma one day and settled for never having more because of that, and she decides she does not want them. Of course that would be fine, it's her life, but what if? This is just a post of rambling I really needed to get it out you know. This way it is still to myself and I don't have to talk to anyone about it, but of coarse you all are reading this so I also feel like I talked to someone, even though I didn't. So Rambling is done and the next post will be happy and I will be over the indecisiveness. No regrets Roght? Right. So good day to all and Thanks again. Krista...you have done a marvelous job...Hillary is wonderful. Enjoy!
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
I have been wanting to use my kayak, but ever since I have gotten it the weather has been yucky. (Go figure) So here I am posting about nothing in particular. This weekend Stasia is off to karate camp. She absolutely loves going. Sensei is always laughing at her because she is always the first to ask "When is camp this year" almost right after we start again in September. It's funny though they work her but off and yet she still wants to go. Try working her at home, jeesh there's a headache waiting to happen. So hopefully this weekend is nice for the kids at camp and me going kayaking. I am keeping my fingers crossed.
I am counting down the days until I get to go to the island (home). I can almost smell the sea air! I am so excited to see my friends and my Grandma. Oh and playland is going to be fun too! Anyway for nothing to post this is just getting longer. So off to work I go. Take care and thanks for letting me ramble.
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Monday, June 11, 2007
Stasia and I went to Maddan Lake fishing on Sunday, and this little guy came swimming buy. I have never seen a Blue Billed Duck before so I had to have a picture of him. He is so neat.
Oh, and we fished for hours and not even a bite. We had fun though, and there was so much wilderness to absorb. It was a very nice day.
Saturday, June 9, 2007
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
Monday, June 4, 2007
Anyway off to work I go.
Have a great day everybody.
Friday, June 1, 2007
I also feel like because my daughter is getting older and more independent I am little by little becoming more alone. I love my daughter desperately and know she has to sped her wings and fly, but if I could just put her into a glass box and stop time I would. She is the most perfect child anyone could ask for and she is smart and beautiful, it scares me to watch her grow at the same time I am excited to see this wonderful person become who she is suppose to be in her life. Jeesh I don't know why I am all mushy today, but there it is.
On another note; could every person out there pray for me to get my yellow belt tonight. Wow that almost makes me fell guilty asking for a prayer when there are so many more important things to pray about in this world. OK could you put one in for those who really need it too.
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
I went shopping on Thursday for his present, and I bought him a whole bunch of things that went together. First I bought him a old fashioned charcoal BBQ. I bought him a grill butler and spices and all the tools he needed for a little set up outside. I also bought him the biggest steak and lobster for him to grill up on the barbie. Anyway, he figured out that I got him steak and lobster, because I had to put it in the freezer, and then he was all set to go and buy a charcoal grill for it. Anyways, I ended up having to give him his presents on Saturday instead of today because he was going to go buy a grill! OH well he still really liked his present. We used it all weekend.
We went for a drive to Osoyoos on Sunday, Jeesh was it busy there. Every one from out of town shopping at Home hardware. IT is the best one around I have to admit, but it was like being in a sardine can with all the people. Then we went to Dairy Queen to buy and ice cream cake! MMM it was good! The drive home was so beautiful all the green and the grapes everywhere. WE do live in a beautiful place.
On another note. I went to the store to buy a few things for supper yesterday, and on my way back my jeep died! I was just driving along and it just stopped. Luckily for me we live in a small town. The tow truck guy that lives just in the cultasack buy us was behind me so he hooked up and gave me a tow to the garage and then he took me and my groceries home. ON the way we of coarse had to pass almost every one I know (ha ha) it will give the guys at work something to bug me about. So today I will find out what happened to my jeep. We think it is just a fuel pump.
Anyway this is turning into a book, I could just keep rambling, but I do have to get ready for work.
Oh and Karate on Friday was pain full I thought I was going to throw up! But Sensei said I was close to grading so I might be a yellow belt before I know it! Hip Hip Hooray!
Bye for now.
Monday, May 14, 2007
My day was good. Stasia made me a card and a wreath at school, as well she bought me a heart shaped container that has seed packets of chocolate hearts. She is such a good girl, I am such a lucky mom. She also baked me a cake from scratch. It turned out beautifully. And it was yummy. I couldn't ask for a better kid than mine!
Have a good day.
Friday, May 11, 2007
So the good news. Stasia and I are going to Nanaimo in August. I will finally get to meet them, and a bonus I will get to hold her new babe! I am so excited. I figure it will be a long enough time if we go in August for her to adapt to a new baby at home. I will be going in the second week of August. I can't wait.
I will be able to see my Grandma too! I miss my grandma so much. She is a wonderful lady, and I haven't gotten to see her in so long. She is getting older so she does not travel any more. I think it has been over three years since I have seen her.
As well, the other exciting thing. I am going to take Stasia to playland! She has never been, and I can't remember when I last went. OH the rides....we will have so much fun.
Anyway, I do have to go to work.
Have a great day every one!
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
Stasia's party was great! All of her friends had fun. They stayed up untill the wee hours of the night, 4:00am I think. They piged out on junk and giggled like crazy. Another year down.
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Monday, April 16, 2007
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
So my post title is yard work. Well, Stasia and I did so much work this weekend. We took two loads to the dump and we raked and swept and cleaned and we fertilized the lawn, there was no stopping us. The yard looked so beautiful when we were done. I even put a fresh table cloth on the outside table and put flowers in a pot on top. What a job. The next day, it was so windy here that all our work disappeared! Tree branches and tumbleweeds and leaves all over the lawn. the table cloth was dirty the pot blew off...it was horrible even my Christmas lights came unattached from the house. Now we have another weekend of cleaning the yard! Oh well, that's how it goes.
We will not be doing any work in the yard this weekend though. Finally the provincials are here. Stasia and I are getting onto the greyhound on Friday and won't be home until Sunday.
Anyway, I hope everyone had a wonderful long weekend.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Monday, March 26, 2007
Every thing is going smooth around my home. Stasia and I are getting ready for the provincials. She is going to be great.
I Love karate. I don't know why I didn't join earlier? Fear of making a fool of myself I suppose. As I get older though I really don't care what others think of me. I like who I am and well, that is all that matters.
Hmm what else....Oh we are renovating our family room. Jeesh that is a test of Patience. It will be so nice to see our visions come to life. I wish I had a camera to show you all the before and after affect. OH well.
Anyway, I am off to work. Have a great day everyone.
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Anyway, I thought I would just complane to someone out there who knows what it is like.
I have a really good machine, but it just sits and collects dust. I have to admit I am to intimidated to even buy a pattern. Maybe one day she will be able to teach me. That would be so wonderful. So for now I will just have to admire her work.
On to something different. Stasia has to start the adult class for Karate, and be a sampai for the kids class. She is so excited. Anyway, I figured since I have to be in late now anyway, I am going to join! I am a little scared, but excited too! We start on Friday.
Have a good day.
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Thursday, February 15, 2007
After, we ate a huge plate of spaghetti and meatballs (home made) and Stasia's was vegetarian, we all watched a family movie. A perfect end to a nice day.
I hope everyone else had a good Valentines.
Enjoy your day!
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Thursday, February 8, 2007
Stasia is amazing! I really wish I had a camera so I could show every one how beautiful she is. Anyway she does keep me busy. We have to do a bit of traveling through the Okanagan over the next two months. She is training to go to a Karate tournament in Vancouver. I am so proud of her. Also she is moving into the adult class, because there is not really anything else the children's class can teach her, which means later nights (oh well). She will be learning to use a bow. How exciting! She is working on getting her blue belt and becoming a Sampai. Hopefully that will happen this year for her. After that she only has brown and then she is a black belt! Again, I am so proud of her. She has committed her self to this since she was six years old. She will be twelve on May 1. Wow!
Something else...it is so foggy here today, I mean I can not even see the house across the street. If feels eery. I also wok up with a bad sinus cold. Grrr..I hate that. Anyway, I do have to still go to work to day, so since I seem to be in slow mode I should start getting ready now.
Have a great day everyone.
Monday, January 22, 2007
Nothing really new in my world. Same old go to work and come home.
My daughter has learned in school about slaughter houses and the treatment of animals in them. So she has decided that she wants to be vegetarian, so I am going to try and change our eating habits together. The last few days has been fun. She is so funny....she is coming to the realization of how much animal products are a part of everyday meals. She does not like that she has to eat so much veggies, but has stuck to being vegetarian. The only thing that poses a problem is dairy, she loves cheese, milk ice cream etc... So far so good though. I am proud of her. I told her should could be lacto-ovo and she seems to think that is good for now. Maybe being vegan will come. I have checked a few vegetarian cookbooks out from the library, so over the next few days we are going to experimenting. Fun!
PS. I have decided that a blog is more fun with pics so I am going to buy a camera, I have decided on the Canon Rebel.
Bye for now.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Monday, January 15, 2007
I have decided that I am going to buy my greenhouse and start growing herbs. I already bought my seed packets. I can't wait to putter in my greenhouse and watch my little herbs grow(ah just the thought of that is relaxing). Anyway I suppose it will be some time still for that, but right now I am going to start them inside. Today I will go and buy some soil and trays.
Oh and another sign spring is around the corner, my daughter found believe it or not two pretty orange flowers in our front yard!
How they managed in the cold I do not know. She brought them in and brightened up her room with them.
Well the day is calling me to be motivated, so off I go.
Enjoy your day every one.
Thursday, January 11, 2007
I am so excited...I got a new phone today. I know that that sounds trivial, but I love technology. It's a razor, and it's pink too. Anyway, I am really suprised at the pics it takes they are actually very nice. I can't wait to read the manual and see what else I can do with it. Anyway, that was my excitment for the day.
OH and is it cold here brr....I don't much like the cold!