Were do I start? I feel kind of lost today. Not completely and not for any particular reason. I will try and explain. I have been working on my inner self and my outer self for just over three weeks now. I know that this is not a long time and the journey will be continues, but I feel a yearning to know more ( about NVC ), to feel more, to understand more about my feelings and why I chose to live my life the way I have up until this point. I was watching a video on NVC..to do with roll playing and to my dislike, it made me cry, it made me feel uncomfortable because it made me feel. Why? I have learned along my path of life to block my feelings, and when the uncertainty of my feelings do arise it makes me uncomfortable, ashamed, and scared. Even typing that right now, I have to stop and practice breathing deeply.
I can say on the other hand though, that by starting to learn more about NVC and my feelings is very exciting at the same time. I am sure I am not alone with the way I feel, and I want my life to have more meaning. I am tired of the emptiness that resides deep down in my pit. It's time to face those uncomfortable feelings, understand me and what makes me tick. I know I am on the right path, and for the first time in my life I feel like it will all make sense. I am a good person. I am worthy of all that my heart desires.